Note to Self: Basic Rules to live by

At another open house. It is time like these… where i have 4 hour blocks of time to do nothing but try to catch up on homework or whatever else tickles my fancy that i have time to actually think. I find that my days, even though they are more free than they have ever been before are still busy with odds and ends. In the last two weeks my life has consisted of writing papers for school and reading 300+ paged books in one weekend. How do i do it? i have no idear. 

I got the best compliment a few weeks ago though from old co-worker of mine i just sold a house to. He told me that he could tell ever since i left my “grown up job” (and yes I do not consider myself a grown up) he has noticed that i am much happier. i guess i never stepped back to look at how things were progressing in my life- lately i have just been living life day to day…

on a side note since that is now my brain fuctions, i forgot how old i was the otherday. I remember a girl telling me she was 23 yrs old and in my head i thought oh we are the same age. Then i realized wait-a-fucking-sec! i am not 23 i am 25. i guess the last two birthdays i really have not felt my age which is a good thing i guess….The last two years of my life have been lame it wasn’t till i learned to cut the crap that it started turning around. Then i went to aussie with robin and things haven’t been the same since - oh and not to mention i met a wonder guy so that helps

ok back to what i was saying… i owe my happiness to not working a cube job but…(isnt there always a big one) i do have to back for a year to get my school paid for….

Not so bad though, i think by then i will crave to work with people on a regular basis, playing office pranks, and acting young and stupid in a conservative type environment. i get a kick out of picturing people in inappropriate situations at work that make people uncomfortable - and no i don’t mean any perverse things- like sexual harassment or anything. Sicko. but it is fun making older people feel silly by teaching them how to rap or use words like grill, holla, pimpin…etc. Everyone needs a bit of youth in them - afterall they are so old most of them forget how to have fun.

i think my list of to do’s has stretched out a mile long. I am pretty much a procrastinating bitch that can’t say no to people i love aka my familia. the result? being overloaded with shit to do and them wham! break down like in saved by the bell when Jessie Spano OD’s on those pills and said in hysteria “i’m so excited, i’m so excited, i’m so scared! <insert sobbing here>” as she falls to the floor. Well today is me before the Jessie break down.

This time it will end quite differently! i have a surge of new found motivation. i have tricked fucked myself into getting all my work done, checking off my to-do-list (or attempting to instead of just staring at it)  so that i can do one thing - travel! I finally found someone who can take a few weeks off with me and we are going down under to hang in Kangaroos pouches in December - when you sorry Washingtonians will be in the slit-your-wrist-gray we call winter. There is a reason why all the famous serial killers come from WA and it ties very closely with the weather. conscience? i think not.

It is not set in stone yet but it is in the works and that in itself gives me enough motivation to do the shit i need to do! Most importantly by the end of year i will be out of this maze of half walls we call cubes. I have grown to hate what some call ”the corporation” and actually miss my damn textbooks - the same ones i once swore i would never want to see again. Now i am in a big boring company that is staffed with rocket scientists (95% of them men) who get excited about nerdy shit i don’t care about. I had one geeky man with tight mom jeans on stomp his foot down at me once because i took too long using the toaster.

anyways i will be out of the world of sheer and utter boredom and i hope to get back into a world of creativity. By the end of the year i will be back in school learning a thing or two, on the white sands of Australia, and slanging some homes! whoopee!